Posted by: Ajapa on: July 25, 2009
What do I do when
I am forced by unforeseen
unavoidable circumstances
to see or hear that
which I would rather avoid?
Crane my neck a full 90 degree
and change the angle of my sight?
plug my ears with my fingers
and repeat to myself, “that does not exist”?
maybe burn it up and
flush it down the toilet.
But what if it is not [...]
Posted by: Ajapa on: July 24, 2009
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Posted by: Ajapa on: July 23, 2009
If God didn’t exist how would things I’ve desired find their way to me? Like my Sufi Gurus say, “Tujhe dete huye nahin dekha par jholi bhari dekhi hai”
(I have not seen you giving me something, but my bags are full). Therefore, I know you love me.
This is from a post published on the 26th [...]
Posted by: Ajapa on: July 19, 2009
A spotlight on me
pensive in a shielded
reality of a black eternal vacuum-
Echos return back like
pebbles tossed to the sky
and forced naivete compels me
to think it a voice
from another romantic reality.
In the empty,
gathering foregone hopes I shout,
“yu huuuu….” knowing well
that the air within this vacancy
cannot travel beyond its boundaries-
the armor of burst-able soapy shield,
of a bubble,
no [...]
Posted by: Ajapa on: July 16, 2009
On special nights around 10:30,
the sweet smell of magnolia
mingled with moonlight,
you, waft through my window.
But I don’t know who you are.
You listen to me as I ramble on
about life and death and college
and fate which joins me to you.
Then you leave assured of my happiness.
But I don’t know who you are.
Sometimes you don’t have time.
Too [...]
Posted by: Ajapa on: July 16, 2009
You studied and studied to become oh so learned
Yet you never took the time to study yourself
You ran and ran to the temple without fail
But never bothered to enter your own heart
Everyday you fight Satan
But you never fight your own self (ego)
~ Baba Bulleh Shah
This according to my dashboard is my 100th post. I want [...]
Posted by: Ajapa on: July 13, 2009
I put on you a pair of wings
and bade you to fly.
I freed you yesterday,
from your obscure origins
in the fathoms of my pain
and from your secret existence
in this lonely digital world.
You were born:
from my moans of labor
as I lay gasping for air,
clutching the earth in pain
and in solitude, waiting
waiting in distress to birth
the remains of [...]
Posted by: Ajapa on: July 11, 2009
“Thousand poets dreamed a thousand years. Then you were born, my love”
“He said it to all his other wives as well” says his fourth and fortunately last wife. What is the point of saying such a nice thing if you are to say it to every one you come across. Do the words even hold [...]
Posted by: Ajapa on: July 10, 2009
I’m grateful:
to my friend who took time from her flourishing new relationship with a vegetarian to eat chicken tikka with me
to the lemon smoothie I drank at Kaldi that scalded my newly scaled teeth but stopped my jaw ache
to the ATM machines around Kathmandu that make it possible for me to pamper myself
To Amelie who [...]
Posted by: Ajapa on: July 6, 2009
My classmates and friends were doing this on facebook… I thought I’d do it here instead. I thought it would be different but similar to several of my previous posts.
Big Dreams small dreams and other dreams
For purely self interest
Uniquely me
Certain Things
Rules: Write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the [...]
I write, they respond